I have some OCD tendencies. I try to embrace them and not drive my husband crazy, but I enjoy only moderate success on that front.
My OCD tendencies extend tostockpiling(please God don‘让我最终Hoarders20年），组织东西，和fertility tracking. Unbeknownst to me when I started tracking my fertility (and trying desperately to have a second child), there is a whole community of people who obsess over every detail of their cycles too! We have a whole online support group with fertility tracking tools, message boards, and even our own jargon. My favorite isPOASaholic对于那些可以的人‘停止在棍子上撒尿。像我这样的人。
You actually need two types of sticks: ovulatory predictor kits (OPKs) and pregnancy tests. But these are expensive, even when you buy them in bulk (I should know). So, in an attempt to satisfy my uncontrollable urge to test my pee while not driving us into bankruptcy, I took to the internet. Online, I found ovulation predictor and pregnancy test strips that were more sensitive than store-bought versions–for bargain basement prices to boot: around 100 strips for $25. A couple clicks and two never-ending days of waiting later, mission accomplished. I was finally able to pee all I wanted and my dear husband could stop Chapter 11 proceedings.
Around 10 days after my period starts, I begin measuring my temperature every morning and peeing on the ovulation predictor strips. Usually nothing shows up until about 15 days into my cycle, but I start early, just in case my ovary cooks up an egg early and drops it like it‘热。每天通过，我覆盖我的桌子整齐地排列的测试条，所以我可以在几乎没有线的进展或杂志的缺乏界面上。
Since I have OCD tendencies, contrary to all logic I start testing about 6 DPO (days past ovulation) to see if I am孕. I know it is too early, but I do it anyway. And then, around 8 DPO, I take out the big guns. The store-bought pregnancy tests. Because maybe, even though I know they‘他们实际上比廉价互联网条额更糟糕‘ll magically perform better because I paid more money for them. I hide these from my husband so he won‘我对所有的钱都感到沮丧‘撒尿，自他以来‘s the recycling and composting police I even have to be careful in how I dispose of them.
My store-bought tests get labeled in my secret code and lined up in a drawer covered by junk mail: 8 DPO, 6 AM, FMU (first morning urine); 8 DPO, 10 a.m., 2 hr. hold; and so on and so on. Because of my obsessive testing, I became aware of half a dozenchemical pregnanciesin the last 18 months. For most people, these go unnoticed; people just think their period is late. But since I am hyper-aware, I knew that I was pregnant and my hopes faded along with the faint pink line after two or three days.
I have been running on this crazy treadmill for months because I got it into my head that I wanted to give my son a sibling by the time he turned 2. Several months ago it became obvious from simple math that it wasn‘t going to happen in time and I had to just hope it would happen at all. And so I kept testing…and testing…and testing.
The day before Aiven‘第二个生日，我再次去洗手间，撒上棍子。实际上，我盯着三。并不会‘t you know it, a pink line appeared. God gave me exactly what I wished for, albeit not the way I expected. Aiven is going to be a big brother after all! And it happened before he turned 2.
